My 2021 Realizations Before 2021 Ends

 The year 2021 gave me the time to be on my feet again. It gave me hope to continue thriving and make the best out of life. Year 2022 is near yet, I am still processing 2020. I know most of us are. Year 2020 was hard. A lot of things happened and most things didn't go as planned.

My 2020 was heartbreaking that I was depressed for most months. I didn't have a great connection with my family and friends that year. My dreams were shattered. Everything that I was preparing for the past years were wiped in an instant.  I blamed myself for that. If I were been cautious or acted more decisively, everything should have been different. However, time flies and it don't care if you're not ready yet. It will go on and you have to face everything, both the consequences of your past and the urgency of the present. I realized, life is harder when you're an adult. Everyday you need to make decisions and take responsibility in everything you do unlike with children, everything is up to their parents.

Having graduated my minor years, I took all my courage to move on and made my 2021 better. Slowly, I forgave and comforted myself that it's okay because sometimes things are not in our control and it is what it is. I can't just stay sulking and grieving for my what ifs. I need to be better and make this year serene and productive than last year. I'd taken paths and I didn't know I would take. Yes, It was scary. It was a whole new thing from what I have wanted but I needed to do something to fuel the drive that I lost. Gradually, I started to get more active. I did the things I was assigned,  not passionately but diligently. I may not be doing what I loved but, doing something is better than doing nothing. I began to read more and became interested  in personal development. 

I can't say that it made me become a whole new person, or change my vision in life, or it made me gain huge achievements. I could say that it made see more things clearly. It erased the fog of my anxieties and what ifs. It stopped me to occasionally reminisce the past and made me live the present and positively look forward to the future. 

Year 2021 was a year of redemption, forgiveness, hope, and healing for me. I learned to let go of things that aren't my control and treasured every moments that count the most. Lastly, I wish you guys the best and cheers for a new blessed year for all of us!